BROKEN HEART HEAL WITH ENJOY THE LIFE

i felt broken heart after my break up...but after 3 weeks i realize that i have wasted my precious moment that is the moment of 20 th.....i should enjoy my single period not waste it with teardrop..DUHHH!!!!!

I NEED 2 CHANGE...

KITA HARUS MEMBAHAGIAKAN KEHIDUPAN BUKAN MENHANCURKN KEHIDUPAN...

sia mo injoy lipe...skarng jadi dewasa bukan jadi budak2...hahaha..ada bogia 1 ayat yang buat sia slalu simpan d liver...

dia bilang klo kantut jgn dipaksa nt nekesirit....btul la baitu kn....angin kn d purut bkn d pantat...hehe...sia mo injoy lipe btul ni o...hargai suma saat sy ada skrng...nt myesal pla lpas jd org tua...urg bilang lpas khwin tda sda dpat injoy life...btulllbtul...btul...sy sukung....

ada ba ni crita,

haro bogia tambalut ku boroson nga budak rnau msti pandai mnum...nda sah bdak rnau klo nda pndai mnum...hahahaha

mangangat diau mongoi menginum hilo badukan id hari 1(5hb.09.2011)...

sia pnya prasn pla mcm mkan peria sma coklat,cuka,manga sma garam...maksud dia len2...

perasan lain-lain...mcm mo p...mcm tda...mcm mo p....

tp mcm tda.

tp hati sia blang kc bahagiia ba hdup ko bkn kc sedih2.jan brkurung ja d rmah.....

hati sia blang mo p tp badan sia pla nda mo..pelik...susah ni...SUMANDAK RANAU BAINI..

nga boros noh id tambalut ku nga...bla lagi mo blajar minum??...

perasaan sia kcu bilau...riuh rendah...masam mnis...phit pun ada....sia pikir ni smpai nda dpt mkan kenyang...mandi pun nda basah...mnum kupi pun rsa phit...AIKKK.....mimang la bah kupi pait.....uish..LAST...LAST...sia ttdur...tda berjawab la soalan dia...hahaha...ini la serita sia tym cuti raya ni...crita KANOU MOGINUM ARAMAITEEE!!!..

ada bnyk lagi bei crita sia....tp nt la kio..sia d rnau smpai 11 sept...cuti mid sem gia...sjak 31hb lg sia d cni...mc ada bnyk msa lg bei...msa yng bnyk ni crta pun bnyk jga...hehehe

Being A Junior Make UP Artist.....

I got talent to make people beautiful...ha3..or maybe not...whether it is a disaster or

masterpiece..i'm not reaLLy sure..WELL,me being the gunie pig of my work...let see whether

my talent as makeup artist is a disaster or mastepiece..TAKE A LOOK!!

YEAH!!i know what the question is....

why always me as the genie pig?

well,this is because i have no courage to ask anybody to become my volunteer..in short form...

NO ONE WANTS TO BE MY VOULNTEER!!hahahahaha..no..no..just kidding...i;m not pro

enough to take someone to become my genie pig...if you look even closer...you look on a

uncomplete masterpiece..if i got the confident on my makeup talent....i will make up for

anybody...hehehehe..

NEW DIRECTION....

ITS been a long time i didn't write in this blog..well,im taking a long vacation from writing a blog cuz i got a lot things to do...

Now its been 3 weeks I'm at Sabah...i felt that my holiday is not

enough...well,what to do...I'm not a degree student like other University...as you

know,Degree student having their holidays until September...if you ask me,of

course I'm jealous but I already make my choice long time ago to enter Allied Science College...no regret..its ok...I'm fine with it...

Within these 3 weeks,i have through so many things....not many actually,bcuz

most of them happen in my house..hahahaha...i felt like the time past like the

KTM.(what a bad comparison)..so fast until i didn't notice..now is the final week

i'm in Sabah or more specifically in Ranau....huhuhu...so sad will leaving Ranau

just around the corner...

NOW I'm enjoying my last week in my sweet home..its true what they always

says...HOME SWEET HOME...words cannot describe what i felt now...what i felt

now is the most wonderful moment in my life....let me describe you a little bit

about the whether in my village...

the smooth wind blow through the door..

the sunshine gives beautiful color to this earth..

the flower blooming all within the fence..

the air is so refreshing and taking you to paradise...

so calm and releasable...

well..well...well...I;m getting better on the words....ha2...well,nothing

describable without picture isn't?...

well,i got no picture at my house but i got 1 picture from my kampong at

TAMBUNAN...I will show on my next post my refreshing moment at mu home....

WITHIN PRAYER.....

Crying In prayer doesn’t mean it is painful.

I have seen so many people crying while they were praying. Is it painful while praying?

Why they want to pray to God if it is painful? But now, I realise. It is not pain...it is a relieve. They ease that they have time with God.

They still have the moment to be with God. They were touched having such a precious time with God. Same as me.

Treasure God’s enlightenment as treasure

Soul craves His guidance as needed by soul
Hear angel messages as strive to hear
Act on messages as we must so act

Uplift those that are in need, do uplift
Judge not faults of another, do not judge
Forgive the hurts we feel, please do forgive
Wisdom you’ve acquired, do teach this wisdom

Thank all the gifts He’s given, do now thank
Share the love you have for God, learn to share
Acknowledge God as Saviour, acknowledge
Repent sins you’ve made, do learn to repent

Begin life anew with God, do begin
Accept His will in all things, do accept

Deep into my heart, I am wondering..why should I pray to God?...

Now, I realise that God actually lift my soul up to heaven...He give me calm in my mind and heart. Jesus will came back to this Earth. He already sacrificed himself and he will born again. I am thankful to God because giving me chance to live until this moment. We suppose give our time with God,because of Him...we still allive until now.

Why people never have moment with God in 24 hours eventhough God gave them a life to live?we should appreciate the moment we have right now...give thank to Him for everything

...Amen.(19/10/2010)

GOD GIVES ME THE CHANCE TO LIVE AGAIN.

my OT frenz....Zaply and Nelvin.

my ex classmate-HALEYNA@HILINUT AND ERNA..

MY CLASSMATE NOW...HEHEHE

HE IS NOT H.E.L.J.O.

I thought my fate will be with him before but maybe God will give me someone who is better than him. I don’t know how and I don’t know why every time I get frusted, someone will come to me without my expectation. I hope my door will open because of him but i still blur with my feeling. Do I really love him and do I know my true feeling?Is it true?(17/08/10)

I want to love him and give him a chance to be in my life. He gives me hope in my life to continue in everything I want to be. I think I love you because I`m missing you everyday. He is ----------------.I believe at him. Thank to you, Lord for sending me someone I should love from now. I will declare it 18/08/2010. Now I will not be single anymore! Thank You Lord!

THE MOST Unexpected DAY IN MY LIFE....WHAT??????

hahahah...funny...so funny...the egg accident yesterday...erm..erm...hahahaha...

i have family in KSKB....i have sister,mother,father,brother and cousins..hehehe..mmg btl durang foster family sy tp apa yang saya tahu adalah...kasih sayang itu wujud dan terjalin lah 1 hubungan...hehehe...I BELIEVE THAT FACTS.I have died and lived again by the power of your love God. Kau telah menembus semua kesalahan saya yang telah saya lakukan selama ini. You always be with me when I`m down and never cease to leave me. God have the perfect love in this world.

WHO IS SHE???HaleynA Indan...

dia sahabat pertama sy yang tahan dgn sikap sy..sy knal Halyena sejak tingkatan 1 semasa masuk tuition Cgu Stella..skrangstiap cuti,msti sy cr dia...cuz she is my source of laugh..ahahaha...nda sbar sy mo jmp dia nnt masa cuti..Hel ank 1st dr 3 org adik beradik..so dia anak sulung la...berlainan dgn sy...Xda sngka sekarang sy dgn dia mjadi bestfren..Hel,sy syg ko...Thank You Lord...my friendship maintain until now...sy pgl dia Hel dlu and sekarng tp skrang sy pgl dia Hilinut..hahah,cuz dia pgil sy Edut...hahaha,HALLEYNA@HALLIANTUS...hahah...lucu pla kan khdupan kita?

The Piece of my life....

Everyday I have a new page of my life. I thought that it will me the last for me to said what I felt toward him but it all end yesterday. My heart crushes into pieces when I know the truth that he already own by someone else. I felt that I want to suicide myself. I felt that I want to cry so much. I really want to scream and regret what have I done toward him...I lose myself but I try to put myself together because I know that besides him I still have God as the loved one. Yes, I admit that my heart really in pain like the knife stabbing in but I can`t change anything. What happens already happening? What can I do now? Should I give up? My consultant said to me that just hold on, just act natural and act professional. I hope I can do it... I really want to say thanks to God what he did to me... giving me spirit to live on.

Happiest day, the most successful day, the healthiest day of your life.

Respond to each person that crosses your path in the knowledge that they come to bring you a blessing. Respond in love to that blessing and you shall have blessings happed upon blessings, and it will be glad day for you rather than a hard day because of your simple understanding of reaction or response. This day is the greatest gift that you have ever known throughout your whole life- THIS IS ONE DAY!

You are created and placed on this earth to fulfill all you given..

Kenapa manusia terkejar-kejar mencari kekayan duniawi tapi tidak pernah terkejar-kejar mencari kekayaan rohani?(31/07/10)

Hari ni saya sedar bahawa semangat berkobar-kobar bukan menyusahkan kita,keyakinan membawa kita kejayaan. Ini dapat ditunjukkan melalui kejayaan oleh kumpulan Farmasi dalam pertandingan debat piala Pengarah. Ecik,dia seorang yang agak menjengkelkan tapi semangat dan keyakinan yang ada padanya tidak pernah malap. Hari ini saya amat mengkagumi dia. Semangat yang membakar dalam diri dia tidak pernah malap dan tidak pernah berhenti membakar malah apinya semakin besar. Hari ini,dia telah menyedari diri saya betapa pentingnya keyakinan harus wujud dalam diri kita yang boleh mmembawa kebahagiaan. Allah,terima kasih atas segalanya yang kau berikan.Amen!(14/08/10).......

LAST BUT NOT LEAST...PBK11...
i really want to go but I cant go cuz Im here...huhuhu...
Shalom... Selepas 12 tahun penganjuran Pesta Belia Keuskupan yang ke-10, akhirnya kita bakal digegarkan dengan penganjuran Pesta Belia yang ke-11 bakal berlangsung di Keuskupan Agung Kota Kinabalu pada 6 -9hb September di Katedral Hati Kudus Kota Kinabalu. Pelbagai program yang menarik telah dirangka khusus kepada para belia untuk membantu dan menyemarakkan lagi komitmen dan pelayanan mereka sebagai seorang belia katolik dan agar kehidupan mereka lebih berpusatkan kepada Kristus.



Untuk menyambut kedatangan pesta belia yang ke-11 ini, pelbagai aktiviti giat dijalankan bagi mempromosikan dan mewar-warkan penganjuran belia Belia Keuskupan ini kepada para Belia dan Umat di Keuskupn Agung Kota Kinabalu. Baru baru ini, Main Organising Team ( MOT ) dengan kerjasama sub Komiti MOT telah menjalankan program “ Jelajah PBK ” di beberapa paroki yang terpilih. Jelajah PBK yang pertama telah di adakan di St James Tenghilan dan Jelajah PBK yang kedua telah di jalankan di St Aloysius Limbanak.



Penganjuran PBK-11 pada kali ini akan memberikan pengalaman dan pendedahan yang sangat menarik dan memberikan nostalgia yang cukup menarik dan beharga kepada para peserta kerana sepanjang program ini berjalan, para peserta akan tinggal bersama sama dengan keluarga angkat yang telah disediakan oleh pihak penganjur. Melalui keluarga angkat ini para peserta akan berpeluang untuk mempelajari cara kehidupan mereka di samping mengalami dan meyelami cinta kasih Tuhan melalui keluarga angkat . Semoga Tuhan sentiasa bersama anda dan jumpa anda di PBK-11. –Publisiti PBK-11...

I REALLY NEED YOU,JESUS!!!!I LOVE YOU AND PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME!!!!

I was Given a Chance By God

My journal in 2010...after 4+1 month i have been away from my family...

The day i came in Sabah, i felt relieve. The love that i kept since 4 month....

Let no one disregard you because you are young, but be an example to all the believers in the way you speak and behave, and in your love, your faith and your purity....

When people lose their love, they will find new sources of love that will not give them happiness.

When you keep saying you are buzy, then you are never free.

Don’t let someone become the priory of your life.

When you wake up on the morning, you have two choices either go back to sleep and dream or wake up then chase up your dream.

Time is like a river, you can`t touch the same water twice, because the flow has pass and never pass again. Same as your life, life is short. Enjoy every moment of your life.....

I CRIED SO MUCH ON SUNDAY MAKING ME REALIZE WHO I AM...THANKS GOD..I APPRECIATE ALL THE CHANCE GOD GIVE TO ME...HALELUYA!!!!!

now,i realize who important my life toward everyone...i promise to improve myself..thanks to everything!!!

NEW HOPE!!!

new hope for my coming birthday!!

my new roomate...ainn!!

sad???

sexy??

new semester has just begun...and new challenges also have just begun...

new subjects,new environment...new feelings...i hope i will have a new spirit...huhu...lord,please be with me always....second weeks in college...yet the spirit to study is low...not yet come a lot...but all I know that I MUST PASSED ALL MY PAPER THIS SEMESTER...i want to realize who am I in this world...i have to feeling to get mature...

this is for my love...hope he is reading it!!

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I thought everything gonna be ok..well, it’s makes me feel more confident about my feeling after you would walk with me after church.11/07/2010..I thought i`m gonna exposed my true feeling about you along we walk together but I still can`t find the correct moment for me to say it...I am regret to what I have lose...the chance is given but the moment hasn’t come for me...that`s I said to myself...the time has come but the chance has not come...IF ONLY I CAN BE HONEST TO YOU...I WILL NOT SUFFER MY FEELING ANYMORE....but I will lose you if I do that...I CAN`T LOSE YOU...BECAUSE I LOVE YOU...

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I STILL BLURR WITH MY FEELING...HOW CAN IT BE???

SIT AND RELAX...

today is saturday...all i do at home is sit and relax..this is my favourite thing to do every saturday...enjoying my day...every weekends(actually this is what i do everyday when comes to holidays)haha...whatever...ok...fine..right now...im gonna enjoy my day...hahah..bye...


all i do when these days come is relax that eventually makes me fat???hahaha...no..no

STEPS OF HAPPINESS................

DUNIA INI MENGAJARKAN

HIDUPLAH TANPA TUJUAN
NAMUN KU TAU KEB'NARAN
KU DICIPTA 'TUK BERJALAN BAGI BAPA

KU TAKKAN DENGARKAN DUNIA
KU TAKKAN HIDUP TANPA-MU
KU TAKKAN DENGARKAN DUNIA
KU MAU HIDUP UNTUK-MU
KU TAKKAN DENGARKAN DUNIA

APAKAH ARTI HIDUP JIKA HIDUP TANPA-MU

Ever

ybody Knows,
You can't be all things to all people.
You can't do all things at once.
You can't do all things equally well.
You can't do all things better than everyone else.
Your humanity is showing just like everyone else's.

So,
You have to find out who you are, and be that.
You have to decide what comes first, and do that.
You have to discover your strengths, and use them.
You have to learn not to compete with others, because no one else is in the contest of "being you".

Then,
You will have learned to accept your own uniqueness.
You will have learned to set priorities and make decisions.
You will have learned to live with your limitations.
You will have learned to give yourself the respect that is due.
And you'll be a most vital mortal.

Believe,
That you are a wonderful, unique person.
That you are a once-in all history event.
That it's more than a right, it's your duty, to be who you are.
That life is not a problem to solve, but a gift to cherish.
And you'll be able to stay one up on what used to get you down....

special dedicated to all my friends whom always be with me all my years in this life...thank you!love you all...please always be with me...