THE STORY THAT TOUCHES MY HEART....I JUST GOT IT FROM facebook THEN I repost it....
Hi, Mommy.
...I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise.Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've gotbeautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but Iwill when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call meyour one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but wehave each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want tobe a doctor when I grow up.
You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn'twait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life wasperfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face Iwill see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. Iknow it already.
Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him aboutme! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think thatyou noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something calledwedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understandyet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he didsomething scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, andyour hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sadfor you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. Itdoesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after,and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if Ido. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? Idon't like it, Mommy.
Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, andyou're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes,and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the mostbeautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'mhappiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just waitand see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I willmake you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.
I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put yourhands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I loveyou, Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was actingfunny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don'tknow why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry,Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise toprotect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a goodperson, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't wantus. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?
You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?
It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me ortouched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? Istill love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is whenyou sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hugme with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you dothat when you're awake, any more?
I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're goingsomewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like ahospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tellyou that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.
...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don'tknow what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I thinksomething's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared,Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I loveyou!
Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! Itfeels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!
Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. Theytold me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.
Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did youget rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did somethingwrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Whydon't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I wantto live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not careabout me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please sayyou'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds andsee your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, Iwant you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I didsomething wrong. I love you!
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